Spring makes peoples minds fuzzy. I’ve noticed that the time we’re woken up to the bright sunlight, people start to regain their energy and they’re waking up from a 6month coma.

Everyone’s happier. Even I am. Though the recent happenings might tell something different.. But I won’t think about those, I’ll concentrate on being happy and how good it makes me feel. I hope my happiness will help others find something worth being happy about in their lives too. 🙂

I’ve also noticed that there’s love in the air. My friends are telling me about their engagements, thoughts about having children and everything loveydovey. And I have to say that I don’t really mind it, I enjoy listening to their stories and feel that world is a pretty ok place after all. FYI I don’t usually enjoy listening to that kind of crap but during spring time, I don’t mind.

I’m in a difficult situation right now and I wish I knew the best way out of this.. but on the other hand, I think that I’ve finally grown up a bit cause I was able to admit one thing to myself which has been ‘bothering’ me for almost 5years now. I don’t know how to describe this feeling, but I’m going to do everything possible to make things right and hope I get something back from it. 😛

So, let’s see what happens..

My turn?

Since last post I haven’t had any time to think about anything else than my studies. But, somehow something changed last week and I’m kinda happier than ever. 😛 I love this feeling.

On the other hand, I’ve been thinking about the up coming Valentine’s day. I thought Christmas was quite bad, being alone among all the happy couples.. but I think Valentine’s is going to be frustrating too.. In Finland Valentine’s day is more for friends, though it’s been gradually changing towards the couple’s lovey-dovey-day. I don’t really hate Valentine’s but, as my friend said, it’s weird how random days make you sad even if there’s really no need for it. Funny how life’s a bitch during those days when people should be happy and enjoy their friendships. 🙂

Yep, I wrote this rambling just cause I’m kinda happy about a very tiny thing that happened in my life, while my friend has suffered from the same thing forever :/ It’s interesting how one thing can be so different when looking from another person’s point of view. I like this feeling I have now, but my friend hates it cause it’s been something she’s felt the past 4-5years. I understand my friend’s point of view and my feelings might change in a day more towards hers, but now I want to enjoy this! I promised my friend that she can laugh at me if this feeling changes soon to despair.. I hope that doesn’t happen, but if it happens I’m happy that I made my friend happy too. 🙂

It’s a pretty weekend, -25 and the sun is shining. Enjoy!

In the beginning

there was light. And in the light, there was path…

And now I’m following my own path, thru life of my own. Where it will lead, I do not know yet, when and how it ends is entirely unknown to me.

I have been pondering questions about life and death pretty much in past year and half. There has been some dissosiative interruptions in my mind, along with panic disorder and some other nasty conditions I would not like to recall at this moment.

What I hope for is that I become better person, more stable, and more patient. That I would have heart and wisdom to treat this planet and its inhabitants with love rather than hate or prejudice and doubt.. And courage to accept even the negative aspects of life that inevitably arise.

Right now, I feel mostly loneliness, uncertainty and even fear…

But as one of my friends often says, “Never give up, never surrender!” (quote from movie “Galaxy Quest”), I hope to hang out in this world, in this life, and make the best out of it, trying to achieve something greater..

If you have any words to relief me in my journey, feel free to comment here.

Peace, Love, Unity & Respect! <3

Moby – In This World

The beginning of finding me.

Wish I knew where to start. I hope this is a good way to find out what the world and its people is about and where’s my place in all this.
Won’t promise happy-go-lucky cheery blabber all the time but will promise to think twice before complaining. Good luck to me!